A testimony

"It has been quite sometime since I've ever ...
hmm..
or may be it was the first time in my life..
that I bathed once I woke up.
Suprised that someone living could achieve such a ridiculous feat?"

Since young, I have been very allergic to weather changes. Everytime the temperature changes or the very moment I were to step into a dusty enviroment, I SNEEZE!
In addition I caught asthma since young, was healed when age of 6. Then caught it again... and it remained tourmenting me from age 9 ...until my birthday wish on my 17 bday was granted.
*the very day I became 17, I had some terrible string of asthma attack.. Up till a point where even climbing up the damn stairs in my home, I couldn't... I had to stop half way, and catch some breath..
then continue on, and rest once a gain when I reach the 1st floor.
Should I say God blessed me.. And it only can ever happen if we have trust and faith.. in Him.
However, even though I am healed and admit it is His work..
I cannot love him...
for he never cease to deny me what I want most..
'I need someone , to love'