The ball of wool,the kitten

In existance was once a ball of wool, brilliantly architectured it was.
there was once a kitten,an innocent child.
she yearned for the ball, yet in vain was her attempts.
fell into darkness instead, rolled out of her sight...
the kitten grew up and found new toys, but still desired that toy...

through the years, there were many...
but she wished for it.
yet today she found one,
one that totally beat the earlier,
and....
......
....
followed by unspoken words..

*i know its a horrible poem, but its something i feel like writing.

Fate or choice?

Is it better to be...
good or bad?
holy or evil?
dead or alive?

Should we...
use people or be sincere?
lead or follow?
be desire for improvement or be content?
be lustful or just loving?
be a friend or a foe?

Finally, should we rely on...
free will or rules?
fate or choice?

Leaves me wondering , what would I do bout life?

Sux

Fucked up.

Sitting in a dark room, freaking wasting my exam time sleeping today. Next moment, I drank. Sux. And now I'm friggin drunk. Supposely lar, then I walked out like 100meters to come online. At the clubhouse.
My best friend, claim I will get hangover. Screwed up, tml I have exam lar. Damn it.
'Pocci' lar like this. 100% die tml, English and Ethics[medical]

I don't understand, if we have a chance together, why when u are stressed or bad mood, you 100% ignore me. However still, you still talk and laugh with ur friends, except me. which you totally ignore.
Bah! I'd rather die.
How I wish I do not have parents, then I wouldn't owe them anything... Then I would not need to live on ...
How I wish I never became alive on this earth, this damned fucked up place. Hell of life. How I wish my story comes to an end. -The End-
yeah, thats if our life is like a friggin story book, where u can see 'happilly ever after."
I can feel my heart beating rather fast, probbaly 120 beats per second? yeah,supposely thats it..
friggin sitting here with all the FRU, police force bastards all around me... They are in Putravillas[the place I live in] for the Permatang Pauh election..
oh fuck, its gonna be tml... hope Anwar wins,..anyway... I believe the government is plotting his loss..
Bah, I shall give another update tml.. K, cya..
-.- seriously I feel drunk.bah.

Life sux

When only would I be able to find someone that would really cherish and treasure me well?
*yeah, I know I sound like a girl.. But that is my very feelings now.

With you today

Here I am,

Your hand on my lap,

Though it is,

as if oceans apart till we be together.

Here I believe,

that either you or me,

will declare an end to this,

should it continue like this...

Would I live through?

this very unfortunate portion of life,

with least of a comfort,

except for having you.

Turning Back.

I attempted to place you in oblivion,
an effort to relieve myself,
finally a sign of selfishness in me.

I resorted to believe the vile in you,
but then I failed miserably,
only because you were so lovely.

You came yourself to bring me back,
to where we lastly met,
gave me a chance to reflect.

You hold me and told me don't forget,
that you and me where just perfect,
and I would not regret,
the turning I made just to have you back..!!

~Wraith

My feelings today...

There is sometimes fun in life, and yet un-fun parts..
today we had a barbeque event for my course mates. Pretty successful, great commitee members we had..
But, she made me feel damn sad. Whatever....!!
I'm over with her... screw it!!
If I were to continue on, it would be like watching a barbeque stick poke tru my own thigh.. Yes, girl.. watching your pain and sorrow parts of life, I unfortunately feel too much of you..
I can bear this, that is IF you would at least try to ease my burden there...
But u absolutely IGNORED ME.
I do not need pity over the stuff I choose to do for u, coz its my decision.. however, could u at least talk to me?
so, yeah! I'm over this! Count it as tnite was the last time I would ever do something for you. Its over.

GenTing Trip last weekend!

GENTING AS AT 26th July, Saturday! Me, ANek, APan,and Dr. Decided that if we were to go anywhere, it had to be that weekend itself! Thus, on monday, we went to check out tickets and got them.. hehehe...

It was a 11pm ticket as we would be able to sl33p through the night and begin playing the very moment we arrive at Genting. The bus arrived at 5am, DAMN FRIGGIN COLD.. Yea, we got some pics but i couldn't smile at all...hahaha..

Anyway,We were among the first people to enter the theme park! Wootz!!!!

note: no queue at all man!!! kewl..!!

private rides for us!! no one else on it..hahaha... no need to w8 at all!!

view of first world... flanked by the SpaceShot™

ooh.. fun?

check out Dr. on the left and APan at the middle!

C***screw u.. X-)

ANek grinnin' happilie awayyy..

MTV Asia Awards 2008 banner worh!

Posing...

Supposely a sunrise background.

dunno whats that..

It just looked fun, so we took this..

Smuggled a camera into SnowWorld™. We went in at the last time slot, 11.30pm.. damnit, I do regret holding the snow with bare hands... It SUX!!! damn freaking PAIN!

Clownz anyone?

FOOD
Buffet! Damn it, Buffet dinner costs RM57. But compare it with a RM15 for a wanton mee at the food court in FirstWorld™. Do the maths urself, this is definitely worthwhile!

This was a mere decoration, nobody wanted to eat it..hahaha

damn cool lerh this lady.. she take the floor, pull abit , stretch abit.. then..

TADA!!!! *look below...

its nice and refreshing for the tummy, healthy too!

barbeque'ed stuffs.. lamb, and 2x chicken.

grilled fish and chicken. Topped with either tartar or blackpaper sauce. Trust me, itz wonderful.

As much sushi as u can eat! damn..

NOW WE HEADED FOR THE ARCADE...

there was a crowd. so we went and kepo-kepo abitz...and,
the crazy bugger got 645 score!

ANek arranging her tickets won by basketball... She also damn crazy fella, all time 300+ score... One round play get 90 tickets..

ODD MOMENTS [MOSTLY BOUT ME]

odd statues.. but fun!

friggin sl33p also they wanna take my pic. T.T

Hantu Genting!

BEAT THAT!!!

kk, thatz all folks! Next update will be about class BBQ party! hehehe

林宥嘉 - 殘酷月光

I listened to this Yoga Lin You Jia's album, and nothing caught my ears. Even after a few playbacks, it was all too slow for me.. then my friend spotted this song
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It is really nice, well.. its about a guy loves a girl very much even to the extend that even forget to breath while doing so.. and also to hate her in order to remind himself about her. He wanders around, but never gets anywhere because he has always been lying on her hand.


FREE PREVIEW
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I lost my facebook account to a hacker and currently workin on getting it back or getting a new account totally.. there goes my facebook records..
Thus, I'm praying hard to be able to obtain my account back.

The Drink Party

Okay Ash , my geng punya drink party isn't just so cool as urs but yeah.. we got our mini-version of it.. hehe

Mini, its really mini.. haha, Twisties™ and Potato Chips ownz!! Addition of coke due to not everybody drinks 'on the rock'. Limes and salt for Tequila.

Laptops for music, speakers ... not subwoofers, we didn't spend much because its only 2 more months we will be in Malaysia.. *fingers crossed because hoping my own CGPA will exceed 3 so that I can go Russia right..

From left : MOYONAISE , tequila and Vasparov Russian vodka x2.

TSH[thyroid simulating hormon] and me.

Gay club members Adrian and Liong. *lol, forgive me guys..

From top : A-Zhu, A-Pan, me, and our most loved A-Nek[nenek] ^ ^

look at the condition..the aftermath of the party.. There is a video about how many people got wasted as well.. budden, sorry lar.. can't put here for viewing. hehehe.....

Trip To Langkawi 2 weeks ago

Hehe... I'm lazy to elaborate on the pics..
Gluckz in guessing what happen in the pics..






































































it was quite relaxing... posting this is tedious though..blogger has proven to be buggy for me for the past 2 weeks, which explains why I nvr post so often..

stupid picture upload made 10 multiple copies of the pictures i uploaded..which means, 5 pics i upload appears 10 times!! WTH i had to delete all excess..
k bie..lazy adi..need go back study.